Thursday, March 18, 2010

Trusting in spite of pain...

Well its been awhile since I have posted. Its been pretty busy around here with not a lot of extra time. Four weeks ago I cut my finger and ended up in surgery because I cut the nerve and tendon in my ringer finger. Its healing well and since I cut the nerve...I have no pain. That's a positive I think.. maybe???. So I have been managing on one hand AND a bad back. Wow does it put things in perspective. Just the desire to not be in pain and to talk a walk.

I know this is simply where the Lord has me at this time and while I often wish it looked differently, I pray for contentment in my present situation. I pray daily for an extra dose of patience as chronic pain does not help in the patience department. It really been a challenge to get much done.

This isn't a post to ask for sympathy, but some prayer. I've mentioned before about my back issues and after over a year of doctors visits and a desire to "escape" surgery, I finally have exhausted all my options with no change in symptoms.

Yep..that's right. After this much time and money MRI looks THE SAME!!! So with that being said...I would love your prayer on March 23rd as I am going in for back surgery. The doctor will be shaving two of my discs that are bulging into a nerve which is causing the constant pain in my back and legs. The hope is that this will relieve the pain and possibly allow my body to absorb the discs to where they need to be. Having a bulging disc is not a problem...its where they they bulging and the doctor said mine just "happened" to go that direction and on the nerve!

I am praying the the Lord would be the surgeons hands and that the surgery would be successful and with no complications. I would also ask for prayer that the recovery would be quick with no set backs. Also, that my pain would be minimal and my anxiety low!!!! Mostly I pray that I will continue to trust Him in His promises and that whatever He chooses that He will sustain me...because I'm a little worn out. Pain is a difficult thing and the last couple years have been full of both emotional and physical pain. My hope is for relief...

I so appreciate your prayers!

Psalm 40

1 I waited patiently for the LORD;
he turned to me and heard my cry.

2 He lifted me out of the slimy pit,
out of the mud and mire;
he set my feet on a rock
and gave me a firm place to stand.

3 He put a new song in my mouth,
a hymn of praise to our God.
Many will see and fear
and put their trust in the LORD.

4 Blessed is the man
who makes the LORD his trust,
who does not look to the proud,
to those who turn aside to false gods.

5 Many, O LORD my God,
are the wonders you have done.
The things you planned for us
no one can recount to you;
were I to speak and tell of them,
they would be too many to declare.

6 Sacrifice and offering you did not desire,
but my ears you have pierced,
burnt offerings and sin offerings
you did not require.

7 Then I said, "Here I am, I have come—
it is written about me in the scroll.

8 I desire to do your will, O my God;
your law is within my heart."

9 I proclaim righteousness in the great assembly;
I do not seal my lips,
as you know, O LORD.

10 I do not hide your righteousness in my heart;
I speak of your faithfulness and salvation.
I do not conceal your love and your truth
from the great assembly.

11 Do not withhold your mercy from me, O LORD;
may your love and your truth always protect me.

12 For troubles without number surround me;
my sins have overtaken me, and I cannot see.
They are more than the hairs of my head,
and my heart fails within me.

13 Be pleased, O LORD, to save me;
O LORD, come quickly to help me.

14 May all who seek to take my life
be put to shame and confusion;
may all who desire my ruin
be turned back in disgrace.

15 May those who say to me, "Aha! Aha!"
be appalled at their own shame.

16 But may all who seek you
rejoice and be glad in you;
may those who love your salvation always say,
"The LORD be exalted!"

17 Yet I am poor and needy;
may the Lord think of me.
You are my help and my deliverer;
O my God, do not delay.