I am a SAHM with 5 children. My 5th child,Larson, lived for an amazing but short 23 hours. He is now safe in the arms of Jesus enjoying his eternal home. I also have an amazing husband who I have been married to for 10 years!! Praise the Lord.
Please be gentle with me for I am grieving. The sea I swim in is a lonely oneand the shore seems miles away. Waves of despair numb my soulas I struggle through each day. My heart is heavy with sorrow. I want to shout and screamand repeatedly ask 'why?' At times, my grief overwhelms me and I weep bitterly,so great is my loss. Please don’t turn away or tell me to move on with my life. I must embrace my pain before I can begin to heal. Companion me through tears and sit with me in loving silence. Honor where I am in my journey,not where you think I should be. Listen patiently to my story,I may need to tell it over and over again. It’s how I begin to grasp the enormity of my loss. Nurture me through the weeks and months ahead. Forgive me when I seem distant and inconsolable. A small flame still burns within my heart,and shared memories may trigger both laughter and tears. I need your support and understanding.There is no right or wrong way to grieve. I must find my own path. Please, will you walk beside me?
Emma's Poem
Oh Little Larson
Little Larson Oh Little Larson You died a long time ago. Oh how we miss you. You were cute and little. But you struggled deeply. You tried to fight,But it was to hard. And now you are with the Holy One. In Heaven playing with your mates who suffered too. You are perfect now. Oh how we all long to live with you there. Oh little Larson we miss you.
Remembering
Go ahead and mention my child, The one that died, you know. Don't worry about hurting me further. The depth of my pain doesn't show. Don't worry about making me cry. I'm already crying inside. Help me to heal by releasing the tears that I try to hide. I'm hurt when you just keep silent, Pretending he didn't exist. I'd rather you mention my child, Knowing that he has been missed. You asked me how I was doing. I say "pretty good" or "fine". But healing is something ongoing I feel it will take a lifetime. ~ Elizabeth Dent ~
Corie and Family, What a testimony of God's love for his children by putting our two families together. I don't know what I would do without my sweet friend Corie! Your pictures of Larson are beautful. I look at him and think "He is with my sweet little girl, they must be the best of friends." Looking forward to our visit and lifelong friendship. Aimee
I'm on my way to bed but had to send a comment (I've never blogged before- don't even know how to sing in - and I am quite impressed with your technological abilities). If I can't sleep tonight be assured that you will be in my prayers. It is so precious to hear from you and to know how you and your family are doing. I know your heart is aching beyond words, but reflections of Christ can be seen in the gold refined by fire.
You might want to visit the following website created by another couple who has gone through similar heartaches as you and Steve. They too are clinging to their hope in Christ. I hope that it will encourage you (and anyone else who has lost a baby)...go to www.ninetynineballons.com (their son lived a miraculous 99 days).
"May our Lord Jesus Christ Himself and God our Father, who has loved us and given us eternal comfort and good hope by grace, encourage and strengthen your hearts..." 2 Thess. 2:16-17
This blog was created in order to communicate with our family and friends about our journey of grief with our son Larson. Larson was diagnosed on October 2nd, 2007 with HPE alobar. He was born on January 22nd, 2008 and lived for a wonderful 23 hours. I created this blogt to make communicating easier and more efficent following Larsons death. It journals my emotions, hopes, fears and everything in between. Grief is difficult...unpredictable...exhausting and confusing. If you are in a similar situation feel free to email me. I know that the journey can be a bit easier when traveled with a friend who has gone through it also. May Larsons story declare the Lords faithfulness during lifes most trying and darkest times.
Contact information
Would love to hear from you. You can email me at theobs@usa.net
3 comments:
Corie and Family,
What a testimony of God's love for his children by putting our two families together. I don't know what I would do without my sweet friend Corie! Your pictures of Larson are beautful. I look at him and think "He is with my sweet little girl, they must be the best of friends."
Looking forward to our visit and lifelong friendship.
Aimee
Dearest Corie,
I'm on my way to bed but had to send a comment (I've never blogged before- don't even know how to sing in - and I am quite impressed with your technological abilities). If I can't sleep tonight be assured that you will be in my prayers. It is so precious to hear from you and to know how you and your family are doing. I know your heart is aching beyond words, but reflections of Christ can be seen in the gold refined by fire.
You might want to visit the following website created by another couple who has gone through similar heartaches as you and Steve. They too are clinging to their hope in Christ. I hope that it will encourage you (and anyone else who has lost a baby)...go to www.ninetynineballons.com (their son lived a miraculous 99 days).
"May our Lord Jesus Christ Himself and God our Father, who has loved us and given us eternal comfort and good hope by grace, encourage and strengthen your hearts..." 2 Thess. 2:16-17
In Christ,
Kim M.
Wow, what wonderful photos of your family. Larson was truly a beautiful baby boy. God bless you and your family, and your sweet angel boy in Heaven.
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