Sunday, February 24, 2008

Psalm 139

Psalm 139:13
For You formed my inward parts;
You covered me in my mother's womb.
I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
Marvelous are Your works,
And that my soul knows very well.
My frame was not hidden from You,
When I was made in secret,
And skillfully wrought in the lowest parts of the earth.
Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed.
And in Your book they all were written,
The days fashioned for me,
When as yet there were none of them

I will NEVER forget October 2nd. Yes a day that will be forever etched into my mind! The day we found out that our son was "not perfect." As the last months have slowly gone by I waited for our son to be born. Constantly wondering what he would look like. I always had this question in the back of my mind with my other children. The difference was that our other children did not have a fatal diagnosis. They had their entire brain and all there genes where were they should be. When Larson arrived on January 22nd (another day I will NEVER forget) I was amazed to see my PERFECT little boy. From the black hair like his siblings, to his sweet face all the way down to his toes. Yes our son had 10 fingers and 8 toes. We always say as parents that when our children come out we count 10 fingers and 10 toes. Well it was different with Larson and I am so glad. Larson was formed perfectly by the same God who formed my other children and God did not make a mistake with Larson. I bonded to Larson while he was in my womb just as I did my other children. Every kick and movement. He moved so much more than my other children most likely because he was missing his brain. I would like to think he moved more because he had so much life to live in such a short amount of time. His short life blessed me more than I could have ever imagined. He was AMAZING!!

I miss Larson so much. Today we went to visit the cemetary with our children. It is quite surreal to be visiting one of your children at the cemetary, but this is our life now. We continue to take things day by day, realizing that we can not "plan" our lives. If I could contol my life then it would definitly not be like it is right now. I am thankful to take comfort in knowing that that God does not make mistakes and am reminded of this in Isaiah 55:8-9
"For My thoughts are not your thoughts,
Nor are your ways My ways," says the Lord.
"For as the heavens are higher than the earth,
So are My ways higher than your ways,
And My thoughts than your thoughts.

We serve a good God and I know we will get through this time by His Grace, Love and Mercy. Please continue to pray for us.


Lisa Weir said...

Dear Corie,

I am in awe of your thanfulness. Larson is perfect and...perfectly wonderful. This is the most beautiful thing I have ever read. Thank you also for the slideshow. We pray for you constantly. Both you and Steve are never far from our minds.

Andrew Weir

Lisa Weir said...

Dear Corie,
I am in awe of your thanfulness. Larson is perfect and...perfectly wonderful. This was the most beautiful thing I have ever read. Thank you for all of the pictures. It helps me to understand more perfectly. We pray for both you and Steve constantly. You are never far from our thoughts.

Andrew Weir

Laura said...

Oh those toes....You are walking so bravely! Praying for some sunshine as well as sweet sleep when the sun goes down. I love you friend....

Anonymous said...


Thank you so much for taking the time and opening your hearts in put this beautiful site together. This is such a special way for us all to get a glimpse into your lives and a precious reminder of the daily cross Christ has asked you to carry. Our prayer is that we all continually hold close to our hearts that Larson will always be an enormous piece of the tapestry that Christ has woven together reflecting the beauty of your family... today, tomorrow and always.

We think of Larson often and the testimony his sweet life has left for us here. May we never forget January 22nd- 23rd and the honor it was to partake in prayer beseeching Christ for mercy & praising Him for His love and Grace!

We Love You All Dearly, The Cochran’s
Judge not the Lord by feeble sense, but trust Him for His grace; behind a frowning providence He hides a smiling face.

amanda said...

This is my first time at your blog, which I found through Eva Janette's blog.

Your baby is beautiful, and his feet are the most precious I've ever seen!

Praying diligently for you and your family...

Melissa said...


This is post is where my heart is today. Sunday at church as everyone prayed over me I heard someone pray "Lord you formed this baby..." and a peace overcame me that yes, the Lord formed my baby and the Lord does not make mistakes. Thank you for putting scripture to words the Lord has been speaking to my heart.

Today has been a rough day...

Paul Scrabeck's sister